making memories

went with mom today to have her MRI. it was so weird being the one waiting. usually the roles are reversed and she is the one waiting for me while i have my kidneys checked. now i know the worry that she feels.
today my mom seemed to have a bit of energy. she is taking to her pain medication well and after her MRI she said she wanted to go have some fun. so kace and i decided to play hooky from work and school and do something with her today. she chose going to the movies and anyone who knows me, knows that i hate going to the movie theater!!! asking me to go to the movies would get the same response from me as if you said "i just pissed on you" ::shiver:: but i fought through my germ phobia and we went to see "Bad Teacher". it was a really funny movie and i don't know why, but every time my mom would laugh i would close my eyes and take it in and burn it in to my memory. we ate candy and junk food and all kinds of things we weren't supposed to. we had a pretty good day.

we are all really trying to stay optimistic. so many people have shared their inspiring stories of family members that have had some form of cancer or another and have gone through treatment and done really well. my boss even said that 2 years ago she also had a mass removed from her breast, she had a mastectomy, did the treatments and is doing really well. and she is because had she not told me, i would have never known she was a breast cancer survivor.
my biggest fear is that mom waited too long :/ her doctor told us that invasive ductal carcinoma is one of the most common forms of breast cancer that women get but i can't help but get my mind stuck on the fact that he was so concerned about her pain and there is something that keeps whispering in my ear that i need to spend as much time with her as i can.